depressed, he goes about his day with a smile to act as a disguise

depressed, no one can see the storm swirling inside

depressed, he dances and finds comfort in the laughter of others

depressed, he studies as a distraction from the pain as he closes his eyes and swallows his tears

depressed, he buries his head into his pillows to keep the darkness underneath his eyelids

depressed, I push him into the sunshine not too far ahead

depressed, I caress his cheek and heal his endless scars from time

depressed, I see him.

depressed, he does not see me.

she craves the love her mother lost

james you filled the void her father concepted

she craved beautiful words and tender kisses

james would rub her back until she moaned

she left the window open and the neighbors groaned

james you left scars on her heart not her arms

she looked to satisfy her craving elsewhere once you left

james you have been gone and so is her craving

the craving her mother lost twenty two years ago

you touched me in the study room basement floor

your leg brushed against mine and you left it there

time stood still as my breath began to slow in pace

we locked eyes but you didn’t think otherwise

you did not know I was falling in love with you and your typing

yes I am aware, how strange it is

I fell in love with the way your fingers trailed along the keyboard

like they trailed along my body 

you didn’t know I had a lack of focus on my American Political Development Essay

but my focus was on your eyes

how concentrated you were on your ethics studies 

it was much after December 13th when I began to fall

I let you think being friends could suffice

naturally my hand was attracted to yours as we walked throughout the store

but you only wanted to hold my hand in bed

and a piece of you was all I needed if I could not have all of you 

I began to live to see your lips grow into a smile 

you told me my powers were no good to you

I am not the half you are to mine

it is okay don’t worry, my other half is growing as we speak on its own without you

you didn’t know I am already in love